A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam.

For a brief moment it's glory and beauty belong to our world.

But then it flies on again, and though we wish it could have stayed, we feel so lucky just to have seen it.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Another time, another place. Still Love.

My desire to blog never took root while Nalah was alive. I could not bear to spend any time writing when all I wanted to do was hold her, play with her, care for her, watch Karis entertain her, and simply BE. Be together. So, here I am. Months after Nalah passed. Fatefully.  I try to focus on what was positive, who she truly is. Not what others have done, or not done, regarding her.

Nalah. I miss you more than words can ever express. There is an emptiness with your physical absence. However, there is a gratefulness that I have not experienced before. The most significant experiences and lessons of my life were with you. You created a space and time for the greatest love. A love that we shared (still do) as a family. A love that grows, even though you are not physically here.

I sense your presence spiritually, however for a Momma that just never seems to be enough. I want to hold you. I long to hold you, care for you, have any of our regular everyday moments back. Anything. I want to re-live those years, months, days. Every moment with you was special. Precious. You taught us that live is not be to be taken for granted. Family is an exceptional bond, or can be. Love can be unconditional, and is most rewarding when it is so.

You are my greatest love and my greatest teacher. A small little person with a very large footprint. I miss you.

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