Sweet Nalah. I miss you so. We love you bigger than this earth, and our love reaches to wherever you are. Please give Cathal Cartmill an extra hug today, as it is his special day too. I miss you more than I can ever express. I love you as much as a Mommy can love, which is very, very, very, very much. Karis and I look forward to seeing you again. So does Daddy. We are all coming to live with you someday. I am sad not to watch you grow up, but please know I will always be your Momma and I will always love you. Fourteen months today dear girl. Our world was shattered when we said goodbye. We love you. Loving you is worth every tear. I will keep my vigil for you tonight. 1:28 am. Our quiet time. Love you.
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Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Another time, another place. Still Love.
My desire to blog never took root while Nalah was alive. I could not bear to spend any time writing when all I wanted to do was hold her, play with her, care for her, watch Karis entertain her, and simply BE. Be together. So, here I am. Months after Nalah passed. Fatefully. I try to focus on what was positive, who she truly is. Not what others have done, or not done, regarding her.
Nalah. I miss you more than words can ever express. There is an emptiness with your physical absence. However, there is a gratefulness that I have not experienced before. The most significant experiences and lessons of my life were with you. You created a space and time for the greatest love. A love that we shared (still do) as a family. A love that grows, even though you are not physically here.
I sense your presence spiritually, however for a Momma that just never seems to be enough. I want to hold you. I long to hold you, care for you, have any of our regular everyday moments back. Anything. I want to re-live those years, months, days. Every moment with you was special. Precious. You taught us that live is not be to be taken for granted. Family is an exceptional bond, or can be. Love can be unconditional, and is most rewarding when it is so.
You are my greatest love and my greatest teacher. A small little person with a very large footprint. I miss you.
Nalah. I miss you more than words can ever express. There is an emptiness with your physical absence. However, there is a gratefulness that I have not experienced before. The most significant experiences and lessons of my life were with you. You created a space and time for the greatest love. A love that we shared (still do) as a family. A love that grows, even though you are not physically here.
I sense your presence spiritually, however for a Momma that just never seems to be enough. I want to hold you. I long to hold you, care for you, have any of our regular everyday moments back. Anything. I want to re-live those years, months, days. Every moment with you was special. Precious. You taught us that live is not be to be taken for granted. Family is an exceptional bond, or can be. Love can be unconditional, and is most rewarding when it is so.
You are my greatest love and my greatest teacher. A small little person with a very large footprint. I miss you.
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