A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam.

For a brief moment it's glory and beauty belong to our world.

But then it flies on again, and though we wish it could have stayed, we feel so lucky just to have seen it.

Sunday, January 10, 2016

It's been too long

It has been far too long since I visited this page. Visit, such a strange word, for an outpouring of one's heart about one's own child. I found it too painful for a long while, to even be near here.

I used to feel Nalah's absence with each breath I took. Now, I feel her presence.

Still, there is no heartbreak like the physical separation from a well loved child.

That said, I am grateful. I know that is a cliche word these days. But, with Nalah, I actually feel it. I am grateful for my little teacher (Nalah). I am grateful for each moment we were together. I am grateful that we could know each other, to the extent we did/do. I am grateful for the opportunity to love her unconditionally, and to learn to love myself  ( a little more) in the process.

My life changed forever when I lost her. In some ways, that is when life started.  Nalah opened my mind, opened my heart, and I will never be the same.

Thank you Nalah, for changing my world irrevocably.


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